current watched up THE GUARDIAN......not bad and not so special for me...this movie describe the life of one aviation survival team...hope u guyz can catch it up...and comment it..or recomance me some fine movie...
sops sops....gonna sleep now..
tomorrow need to wake up early due to my house under renovation recently...new year arrive soon...hehe
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
not to be anymore for now!!!!i lost my dream....
it has been a long time sine my last blog on last month ...well....i am quite lazy to update my blog recently and i think i am not in mood also...feel suffering and frush in my life nowadays..i dunno why!!!i am really moody and i feel that wanna give up everythings...i know its quite stupid but i really dunno what should i do and what i gonna do except this...sometimes i really hate myself ...why should i always cant reach my dream,my ambition,my lifestyle,my everythings....is it i am not satisfied with i have for now??or i need more??for now,i totally lost my dream...except i am finish my degree or i am luckily get any sponsorship from airlines...
i am suceed with the interview with APFT for the pilot cadet programme recently which will comencement on march 2007...i should happy on that because finally i get it...and my parents allow me to join in due to its my ambition...and once i comfirm i need to pay around rm10k for the deposit....but after consider much...me,include my friends and teachers,and even the principle of apft also told me that it is quite risk if i join in as a private cadet...because we are not guarantee to get the job when graduate later...YES!!!what they told me might be right...because what they said was the truth...i am so suffered after that...i am not sure wether am i make a right decision if i choose to join in apft without any degree...i consider much and much and i dunno what should i do...YES!!ITS MY DREAM.....but sometimes dream and reality have a long distance...i dun want my mum rm200k investment come over with my jobless...i really have to think that..because it was a big amount...so after day and day considering,i decide to give up my piloting programme and finish my degree 1st...mayb i can reapply after i am graduate...if i still able to study la...
just had a call from my mum yesterday...i tell her that mayb i wan to change my course and of course i want to drop out from this uni....she allowed...mayb will chane to collage to continue my 3+0 tertiary studies...still dunno which collage i wan to join in..mayb kbu or kdu or....i really cant fixed myself with the enviroment here and the course ....i cant understand what the lecturer teach about...mayb i am not interested with the course ...i should not blame the others but mayb its my problem...sorry for that...sorry everyone.....
i feel like lost and lose in everythings since i decided that i am not join the apft in this march...haih~~~i dunno i will regret or not after this but this is a reality...i gonna accept it...some of my friend will say that "why u dun wan to join it,its a good chance wo,so ke si"...i know!!!but i think of my mum need to take out 200k to invest on me ,i am really need to think about that u know....i know she can do it but...in aviation field not like others field...in malaysia we juz have 3 airlines company ,but if others field we have freaking lots....so if i am unlucky i totally cant get it....plus if i dun have a degree,who want to employ me??who want to pay me a high income???then how i want to repay back what my mum do for me before??i love my mum very much!!!so no choice...will finish my degree 1st...if next time got chance i sure will get it again...will also try to apply mas cedetship...to realise my dream!!!to reach my ambition!!!really hope that what the decision i make now not too "bodoh"....hehe...will try my best to finish my degree although i dunno that wether i interested or not....hope god bless me...
bye folks~~~
Ciao...
***special thanks to pei,jin,pei ling,mike,nana and hooi,teacher siew hong,sir wong kam meng and others to provide me lots of opinions and advices....
will update soon
i am suceed with the interview with APFT for the pilot cadet programme recently which will comencement on march 2007...i should happy on that because finally i get it...and my parents allow me to join in due to its my ambition...and once i comfirm i need to pay around rm10k for the deposit....but after consider much...me,include my friends and teachers,and even the principle of apft also told me that it is quite risk if i join in as a private cadet...because we are not guarantee to get the job when graduate later...YES!!!what they told me might be right...because what they said was the truth...i am so suffered after that...i am not sure wether am i make a right decision if i choose to join in apft without any degree...i consider much and much and i dunno what should i do...YES!!ITS MY DREAM.....but sometimes dream and reality have a long distance...i dun want my mum rm200k investment come over with my jobless...i really have to think that..because it was a big amount...so after day and day considering,i decide to give up my piloting programme and finish my degree 1st...mayb i can reapply after i am graduate...if i still able to study la...
just had a call from my mum yesterday...i tell her that mayb i wan to change my course and of course i want to drop out from this uni....she allowed...mayb will chane to collage to continue my 3+0 tertiary studies...still dunno which collage i wan to join in..mayb kbu or kdu or....i really cant fixed myself with the enviroment here and the course ....i cant understand what the lecturer teach about...mayb i am not interested with the course ...i should not blame the others but mayb its my problem...sorry for that...sorry everyone.....
i feel like lost and lose in everythings since i decided that i am not join the apft in this march...haih~~~i dunno i will regret or not after this but this is a reality...i gonna accept it...some of my friend will say that "why u dun wan to join it,its a good chance wo,so ke si"...i know!!!but i think of my mum need to take out 200k to invest on me ,i am really need to think about that u know....i know she can do it but...in aviation field not like others field...in malaysia we juz have 3 airlines company ,but if others field we have freaking lots....so if i am unlucky i totally cant get it....plus if i dun have a degree,who want to employ me??who want to pay me a high income???then how i want to repay back what my mum do for me before??i love my mum very much!!!so no choice...will finish my degree 1st...if next time got chance i sure will get it again...will also try to apply mas cedetship...to realise my dream!!!to reach my ambition!!!really hope that what the decision i make now not too "bodoh"....hehe...will try my best to finish my degree although i dunno that wether i interested or not....hope god bless me...
bye folks~~~
Ciao...
***special thanks to pei,jin,pei ling,mike,nana and hooi,teacher siew hong,sir wong kam meng and others to provide me lots of opinions and advices....
will update soon
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